16 septembre 2011
MOVING AWAY
Sometimes when you really want something and work hard to get it, things don't turn out the way you thought they would. Disappointment and disillusionment render painful the very thing you coveted. Sometimes you just have to move away.
01 septembre 2011
CALM BEFORE THE STORM
People shouldn’t mistake discretion for weakness and anyone thinking they can dictate to me is making a very grave mistake.
31 août 2011
SECRET DIARY
Maybe now that everyone thinks I no longer write this blog I could use it as an outlet; what do you think? They say that diaries are written to be read; maybe that’s so, after all what is the point of voicing your angst and your disappointments and fears and dreams if no-body ever knows how you’re feeling? It’s been well over a year since I last wrote on here; it took half a day to retrieve my log-in details that I had completely forgotten! When I look back on all the things I wrote, I seem happy and relaxed in spite of everything; I was naive and I definitely took things for granted back then; I thought some things would never change, like the love that bound my family together...but however stable the fundamental building blocks of our lives appear to be, there is absolutely no guarantee that they will not come crashing down when pressure is applied, however minimum. All that we hold sacred is only chimerical and the sooner we realise that the better.
18 mai 2010
REASONS TO BINGE...OR NOT
Reason to binge: being faced with a stunning girl, legs up to here, boobs under her chin, skin like a peach and thirty years younger...feel inferior.
Reason not to binge: going shopping with a plain, dumpy girl buying crisps and fizzy drinks...feel superior.
Moral: never make a stunning woman your friend!
11 mai 2010
WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHEN YOU'RE YOUNG
I suppose it's a good thing that we don't know what's in store for us as we get older; I guess it would completely ruin our enjoyment of the youth we so unashamedly waste and take for granted.
Since I turned 60, I have discovered a whole new world that I never knew existed, I learn new things about my body every day, things I'd never even heard of, and every time I go on the net, eager to find some miracle solution, I get the same response: ...is an age related condition...when the body ages...a natural part of the aging process...nothing to be done...
Frankly, if you're under 50 you should read no further, there's nothing you can do and why anticipate this slow and progressive decent into...
... ridged, split nails; yellowing teeth; thinning hair (that's everywhere!); loose, leathery, blotchy skin; cataracts; age spots; sun damage; fading eyesight; receding gums; height shrinkage; crunching joints; thinning lips; thinning eyebrows; lumps and bumps that appear in inappropriate places like on your forehead, on your forearms, on your thighs...
...even the internal organs can't escape this inexorable march of time: rectal and vaginal prolapse; stress incontinence...do I need to go on? I could, this list is not exhaustive even if it is exhausting...no?...suit yourselves...
A word to the wise, just remember, gather ye rose buds while thee may, old age is just around the corner and it ain't pretty.
11 mars 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FISTON
All those years ago and it seems like yesterday...happy star gazing to the best son a mother could have. xx
08 mars 2010
OH, REALLY?
I read somewhere that when you're craving sweets or chocolate it's probably because you're thirsty and you should drink some water...what a load of c***!
03 mars 2010
IDENTITY CRISIS
You know when you have a baby and all that build-up for nine months leaves you wondering what you're going to do with the rest of your life? Well this baby has been simmering for 16 months and now that it's born there is a curious feeling of unease at the back of my mind all the time. Looking in the mirror I don't recognise myself now any more than I did before I started, I feel like one of those false skinnies that are actually fat when you look closer and will blow up like a lifejacket if you pull the cord. Physically, the job is almost done, but psychologically it's going to be months, if not years, before I'm comfortable in my new skin, in my new mentality and in my new life...and frankly, I don't think I'll EVER be that girl I love to hate, you know, the one that leaves her macaroon nonchalantly on the side of the cappuccino saucer as if she hasn't even noticed it and only drinks half the cup before stalling as if it's just tooooo much for her and she couldn't possibly manage a WHOLE cup of coffee...
And to all those people who say "...it's calories in versus calories out, it's not rocket science", they should be tied to a post and shot at dawn...with a big piece of chocolate cake stuffed in their gob!
26 février 2010
BEFORE AND AFTER
AFTER
WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEK 72
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAL!!!
Tonight, minus 1kg. Total is now minus 40kg or 6¼ stones in old money. Before and after photos to come.
Thank you and goodnight....
25 février 2010
FEELING GOOD
Today I am wearing a size 12 trouser for the first time! I've been in size 12 above the waist for ages, but my classic British pear shape kept me in size 14 below the waist...it feels good...no...it feel great! So that's size 24 (52) to size 12 (40) in 16 months...may be at goal weight tonight, but if I am I'll be setting another goal weight, I'm getting into this slimming lark...
24 février 2010
VERY NERVOUS
Weigh-in is advancing rapidly and the Wii is still telling me that I'm not at goal weight...what has a girl got to do to lose a couple of pounds around here! I had planned to take golfer with me tomorrow to share in my triumph, but unless the Wii can tell me some good news tonight I won't be risking it...roll on Thursday 6pm, the suspense is killing me.
19 février 2010
YOU'VE GOT WHAT?
...Shingles! Yep, it's chicken pox for over 50s people that have already had chicken pox...for crying out loud, isn't it enough that we have to have all those childhood illnesses without them coming back to haunt us in later life; I tell you, this growing old malarkly is no fun, all sorts of things you've never heard of come crawling out of the woodwork once you get over 50...and don't even get me started about being over 60!
18 février 2010
WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEK 71
Minus 500g tonight, which is a miracle given my weekend away and the fact that I really haven't been concentrating...I have told everyone to be there next week as I expect to arrive at my goal weight, countdown with me: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6...
BE MY VALENTINE
Does the sound of a Valentine weekend away staying in a B&B over a baker's shop and tea room sound like heaven? Don't know, but the breakfast was worth the weight I will have put on tonight...
11 février 2010
WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEK 70
No fat club tonight as everyone is snowed in! Oh, thank you global warming!
08 février 2010
DIRTY WORD
Why is it that whenever TDC hears the word "Private" they react as if you'd sworn at them? For the second time I have had to ask them to intervene regarding nuisance; firstly noise nuisance perpetrated by our upstairs neighbour, and now rubbish dumping on private ground by the people living next door to the matriarch. On both occasions, as soon as I said we were not living in Council properties their attitude has been one of shock and horror that they should be asked to get involved with...dare I say it...private...litigation between...private...individuals, tsk, tsk.
So go on all you yobbos, fly tippers, sociophobes et psychos, give it your best shot, as long as you do it to private home owners, there's nothing anyone can do against you.
04 février 2010
WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEK 69
Minus 750g this week, another small push and I'll be there...not before time, I'm looking forward to living a normal life and not being eternally on a diet...just to recap: it's a loss of 6 stone, that's over 38 kg so far...but you know, some people just can't handle others' acheivements, it seems that at the wedding we attended just before Christmas, "someone" was saying behind my back that I must have had a gastric band fitted...I think "someone" watches too much reality TV. I don't want congratulations, I shouldn't have been 6 stone overweight in the first place, but I don't want sniping either, I just want to be accepted for who I am now....and, why not, who I was then, is that so much to ask?
30 janvier 2010
NEVER A MINUTE TO MYSELF!
Some of you may be thinking that with all that dieting I must have faded away all together...no, no, no, rest assured, I'm still alive and kicking, but there is one thing that has changed: I no longer live alone.
Yes folks, as lovely as golfer is, and as happy as we are, I no longer have time to read, I no longer have time to blog, and since the Wii came to live with us this Christmas, what with the bowling, the golf, the karate, the boxing, the juggling and the yoga I simply no longer have a minute to myself! This is all quite paradoxical really as I equally no longer do any housework, washing, hoovering, or any of those household chores that take up so much time!
Oh, and yes, let's not forget my new employers...last time I blogged, I was in danger of redundancy, but now I have lovely new employers who took me to Cheshire for a few days to meet the team, where I was wined and dined and treated like royalty...the down side of course is that I can no longer leave work in the middle of the afternoon and have any time off that I like, but it would be churlish to complain don't you think?
And for those of you that are following my Weightwatchers journy, last week I was just 250g over my pre-Christmas weight...that is bloody marvelous given the amount I've stuffed down my throat over the past few weeks...but now let's be serious, just 1½ kg to go, two weeks max...watch this space...and wait for the before and after pics, you won't be disappointed I promise!!
P.S. Someone I could touch with a very short stick called favourite cuz put on 1½ STONE over Christmas, that's 10kg...cripes!
17 décembre 2009
WEIGHT WATCHERS WEEK 61
Rats! I'm not going to make goal by Christmas...minus 500g today, another 1½kg to go. Never mind, it will be a nice New Year present.
